I envision the conversation I had before I was born. Between God and myself.
God tells me that he has a plan but actually asks if I’d like to be a part of it. Actually gives me a choice.
He says he’s going to give me something that not everybody or everything gets. In fact only a very small percentage of anything gets it. Only a select few.
It’s called “A Life”.
He tells me that this is how it’s going to go… you’re going to be born into a world and your home while you’re having this incredible opportunity will be a planet called Earth.
He’s always reminding me of how special, lucky, fortunate, blessed it is to have one of these things. Keeps reminding me that not everybody, everything gets one.
He tells me that one of the things he sees in many of the others he gives this opportunity to is they get so sidetracked, (and he tells me if I take the gift, I will too at times), and that he’s using me as one of the vehicles and will give me experiences to wake me up and take the message to others…
This gift, this thing called life is so full of things. And he tells me, straight up, it’s going to be EVERYTHING. It is going to have the highest of highs, the lowest of lows… there is no such thing as having “A Life” that only has one side of that.
He says, “You will reach heights you never even dreamed of and you will experience lows that most people can’t imagine. But guess what, that’s the price tag on this thing called “Life”.
You will meet someone who will be with you through the most important times. She will become your wife. Her name will be Tracy. She will bring with her 2 children that you will take on as yours. You will have 2 of your own to make up a total of 4.
It’ll be challenging, as it should be in order to learn the most important lessons. And you will be a rock in the lives of these others.
You’ll get confused sometimes at how what you try to do as a man, as a father, as a friend, knowing it’s for the good… sometimes doesn’t turn out like you’re hoping and plan… but that’s one of the first of the major lessons… it’s not your plan… and it’s all a part of the price of this thing called Life.
One day you will experience one of the most terrible losses you, or anyone else, can imagine. Something that seems unbearable. Something you’ll have a choice in at the time of this happening… to focus only on that part of this thing called Life that is the lowest of lows…
But I’m here right now, before it even gets started to let you know how this all unfolds… and I’m going to give you a chance to decide… do you want to do it? Do you want to go into the world, have all the experiences… good and bad… and all the while you’ll have this precious other gift of life Tracy to experience it with?
Imagine when this loss happens in 2019, for Tracy, if you decided not to take this gift to exist, because it sounds too painful… how she’d be going through this alone.
So here it is my child… I’m giving this to you, this thing called Life. Yours to decide…”
And I didn’t hesitate. I signed up immediately and have never looked back.
Happy Birthday to the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me.
You’re my everything.
I love you more than I could ever explain. Especially now.